M'buku lomwe likubwera la Cathy Wang, The Imposter Syndrome, kazitape waku Russia adakwera pakati pamakampani aukadaulo kukhala COO ku Tangerine (Google riff), pomwe m'modzi mwa achinyamata ake adapeza chiwopsezo chachitetezo, chofuna kusewera. Bukuli lifika pa mashelufu pa Meyi 25, koma EW igawana mitu isanu ndi iwiri yoyambirira patsamba lathu m'magawo atatu. Werengani ndime yoyamba ili pansipa.
Nthawi zonse Lev Guskov anakumana ndi chidwi, ankakonda kufunsa makolo ake. Ngati yankho liri lanzeru, adzalemba, ndipo ngati akuganiza kuti awonjezerapo, adzaonetsetsa kuti zolemba za mbiri ya banja la wophunzirayo zatsirizidwa. Ngakhale Leo sakhulupirira kuti makolo abwino amafunikira ntchito yopindulitsa. Ndipotu, mu ntchito yake, makolo oipa nthawi zambiri amakhala zizindikiro za kupambana. Kuzindikira koyambirira kwa zovuta, kugonjetsa phiri ili la kukhumudwa ndi mantha, utumiki, kukhulupirika ndi chikhumbo choposa zoyembekeza, ngati chivomerezo chomwe chinakanidwa kale.
Kumene akukhala tsopano, mu holo ya yunivesite m'mphepete mwa Mtsinje wa Moskva, Lev wazunguliridwa ndi makolo ake (zonse zabwino ndi zoipa). Anali wotopa, kulola madandaulo opanda cholinga kuti akhazikitse moyo wa Moscow: Msewu wa Moscow Ring unachedwa ndi maola awiri, nkhaka zodula m'masitolo ogulitsa zakudya, dokotala wakhungu pachipatala cha boma yemwe anakana kugona mochedwa ndikupimidwa thupi. kupuma kwake, adanena kuti amayenera kutenga chakudya chamasana kunyumba. Ndinayenera kufa chifukwa mkazi wake sakanatha kukhala wosamalira pakhomo. …?
Zaka zingapo zapitazo, Leo anali pa siteji m'chipinda chofanana ndi amayi ake pamzere wakumbuyo atanyamula tulips. Patapita mlungu umodzi, iye anafika pa nsanjika 20 konkire chapakati Moscow tsiku lake loyamba pa ntchito. M'chipinda cholandirira alendo muli zolembera zamkuwa zokhala ndi zoyambira: SPb. National Security Service. Mtsogoleri wa ntchito zitatu zazikuluzikulu zaku Russia.
Panopa kunja kukutentha, kutanthauza kuti holoyo yatsala pang’ono kuziziritsa. Mnzake Leo mu inning yachisanu ndi chitatu, Pyotr Stepanov, adapumira kumanja kwake. Peter anali wamtali ndi wowonda, ndipo pampando wowondayo anali ngati mpeni, manja ake odulidwa ndi miyendo yopindika yokhomeredwa bwino mumlengalenga. "Nanga bwanji izi?" Adafunsa motele Peter, ngakhale Leo adadziwa kuti akutanthauza ndani. Tsitsi lakutsogolo, lalitali m'chiuno.
"Mukuganiza kuti ndikungoyang'ana nkhope?" Peter adawoneka okhumudwa. “Taonani mtundu wake.” Amatanthauza lamba wabuluu ndi wachikasu wozungulira mapewa ake. Leo ali nazo mu bokosi pa shelefu yapamwamba mu chipinda chake.
"O, munthu wophweka bwanji." Petro anatsamira patsogolo. “Ndiye zotheka zikuwonjezeka. Kumeneko, mutu wofiira kumanja. Amawoneka bwino kuposa wa blonde, ndipo ngakhale atavala mwinjiro wotayirira umatha kunenabe kuti ali ndi thupi lolimba. " Leo adawona redhead nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndimalowa ndikumuzindikira pazifukwa zomwe Peter adachita, ngakhale sananene. Lachisanu lapitali, pamene anali kukonzekera kuchoka kuntchito, Peter anamunyengerera kuti “ayime mwachangu” pa hotelo yamakono, kumene Leo anamwa chakumwa chotsika mtengo kwambiri, botolo la madzi amchere a ku Georgia, ndipo Peter anachita manyazi. trawling. Leo anabwerera kunyumba pakati pausiku, mwanjira ina adakali ataledzera, koma anapeza chibwenzi chake Vera Rustamova kukhitchini. Vera ndi mtolankhani wa gulu lankhani za boma la Central Media of Russia (RCM). Ali ndi mawu olimbikitsa nkhani, akuya komanso ofewa, omwe amatha kuyimba momveka bwino. "Ayi, osati iye."
“Bwanji, osakwanira? Ngati mukufuna zina, sindikudziwa ngati kuli koyenera kukasaka dipatimenti ya sayansi ya makompyuta. ”
Petro anaganizapo. “Ndiye mukufuna kukhala opusa ndi onyansa, sichoncho? Sindikudziwa chimene ukuchita, koma ulendo wina udzanditenga paulendo wako wokafufuza.”
Leo sanamve zina. Amamuitana Peter kuti azingocheza, ndikugawana chifukwa chochoka muofesi - Leo alibe kukakamizidwa kolemba ganyu chifukwa wachita bwino chaka chino ndikukweza zinthu zingapo. Mmodzi ndi Bashkir ndipo adakali kuphunzitsidwa, pamene ena awiri ndi abale okangalika: mchimwene wake wamkulu ndi wophika bwino ndipo tsopano akugwira ntchito ku hotelo ya London yomwe nthawi zambiri imakhala ndi banja lachifumu la Saudi, ndipo mlongo wake amagwira ntchito kwa loya ku St. Leo anadzuka m'mawa ndi mutu ukugawanika ndipo pafupifupi sanayerekeze kubwera.
Koma tsopano ndi wokondwa kuti anayesetsa. Kuseri kwazithunzi: mzere wachinayi kuchokera kumanzere. Tsitsi lofewa lofiirira, khungu lotumbululuka, ndi maso ang'onoang'ono akuda oboola amamupatsa mawonekedwe oyipa. Kodi padutsa nthawi yochuluka bwanji? Zaka zisanu ndi zinayi? khumi? Ndipo komabe iye anamudziwa iye.
Amawatcha kuti mabungwe ofufuza, koma kwenikweni ndi nyumba za ana amasiye, malo osungira ana osafunidwa. Nyumba zazikulu zazitali zazitali zokhala ndi zoikamo dzimbiri ndi makapeti ofota, nsapato zolemera ndi njanji zapa njinga za olumala zili pansi, eni ake achichepere akugwiritsa ntchito makina monga otsetsereka. Ambiri mwa malowa ali m'mizinda ikuluikulu ndipo nthawi zina kunja kwa mizinda ikuluikulu. Leo anakumana koyamba ndi Yulia paulendo wopita kwa mmodzi wa iwo.
Anali kufunafuna mnyamata. Wamkulu, zomwe zimakhala zovuta chifukwa anyamata amatengedwa adakali aang'ono ngati ali amphamvu. Ntchitoyi ndi yovuta komanso yofunika kwambiri, yokhudza kazembe wa dziko la Canada ndi mkazi wake. Ndi anthu oopa Mulungu, makamaka mkazi, amene anafotokoza cholinga chake chowalera asanabwerere ku Ottawa kwamuyaya: kuyankha kuitana kwa Mulungu ndikupatsanso miyoyo ina yosafunidwa mwayi wina.
Anawo adayitanidwira m'chipinda wamba ndi mkulu wa bungwe, namwino wofooka Maria, yemwe msinkhu wake sunadziwike. Leo akufunsa Maria kuti alangize aliyense kuti adzidziwitse yekha ndikubwereza chiganizo kuchokera m'buku lomwe amakonda kwambiri.
Pofika pachiwonetsero chachisanu ndi chinayi, chidwi cha Leo chinayamba kusintha. Anayang'anitsitsa nkhope yake, kuyang'ana m'maso, ndipo anaika maganizo ake onse pamene munthu yemwe ankamuona kuti ndi wabwino kwambiri akupita patsogolo, mnyamata watsitsi laudzu lomwe linamera pachifuwa cha Leo.
“Dzina langa ndine Pavel,” mnyamatayo anayamba. “Buku lomwe ndimalikonda kwambiri ndi la munthu wovala buluu. Ali ndi akatumba ndipo amatha kuuluka. Pavel anatseka maso ake ngati akungoganizira zinthu. "Sindikukumbukira mawu amodzi."
Atatsala pang'ono kuchoka Leo, adamva kukhudza ndipo adatembenuka kuyang'ana mtsikanayo. Anali wamfupi, ndi nsidze zowonda zikulendewera mpaka masaya otsetsereka komanso mphuno yosalala, nsidze zokhuthala komanso zosalamulirika zidamupangitsa kuti awoneke ngati wamisala. “Mutha kunditengera kumeneko.
“Ndinali kufunafuna chinanso lero,” anatero Leo, ali ndi chisoni mumtima mwake pamene anazindikira kuti akumveka ngati wogula nyama akukana chidutswa cha nyama. “Pepani. Mwina nthawi ina".
“Ndingakhale bwino,” iye anatero osasuntha. "Ndili wofunitsitsa kwambiri kuchita ntchito yabwino. Sindikunena zomwe Paulo anachita. Mukuyenera kumusiya.”
Anasangalatsidwa ndi mawu ake. “Pavel si mnyamata yekhayo” “Mumakumbatira nkhonya mukamasumika maganizo. Munachita izi pachiyambi pomwe Sophia adatsamira tiyi. Amangovala juzi pomwe tinali ndi alendo, mukudziwa.
Mwamsanga, Leo anatambasula dzanja lake kumbuyo kwake. Anasiya pang'onopang'ono, akumva kupusa. Iye anagwada pansi n’kunong’oneza kuti, “Munati mukhoza kuigwira, koma simukudziwa kuti ndi ntchito yanji imene ndikukufunsani.
"Dzina lanu ndi ndani?" Anawona Sophia, mkazi wotchuka wa V-khosi, akuyendayenda pafupi, onse atcheru ndi chiyembekezo; ankadziwa kuti zimafunikira amuna, koma mosasamala kanthu kuti ndi mwamuna kapena mkazi, bungweli linkalipira mwana aliyense wotengedwa ndi Bungwe lachisanu ndi chitatu.
Mthunzi unadutsa pa nkhope yake. “Ndakhala kuno kwa moyo wanga wonse,” iye anakonza kukhosi kwake. “Ukudziwa, inenso ndikhoza kuimba.”
“Musati muchite zimenezo. Palibe njira yolakwika yochitira zilankhulo zina. Ndi lingaliro labwino kwambiri. ” Anayimilira, mozengereza, ndikusisita mutu wake. "Mwina tidzawonana nthawi ina."
Iye anatenga sitepe yaing'ono ndipo mwanzeru anakana kukhudza kwake. "Liti?" "Sindikudziwa. Mwina chaka chamawa. Kapena wotsatira.”
Tsopano akhala maso ndi maso mchipinda kuseri kwa sitolo yamakina a NSA. Iyi ndi malo osavomerezeka a Leo - palibe wina mu dipatimenti yomwe amakonda kuigwiritsa ntchito, chifukwa ili kutali, ku Mitino. Kwa zaka zambiri, adakonzanso malowa: adasunga chithunzi cha kampeni ya purezidenti wapano ngati angafike ndipo satero, adachotsa zinyalala za Gorbachev, ngakhale molakwika adangosiya chithunzi chimodzi chokha chokhala ndi siliva wakumwa mowa mwauchidakwa. Zoipa motsutsana ndi thupi lanu ndi moyo wanu zimasindikizidwa pansi, ndipo Leo nthawi zina amaimba, akutsanulira vinyo wake ndi Vera. Goli.
"Ukukumbukira kundiwona?" Anasuntha, ndipo mpando unamveka phokoso losasangalatsa pansi. "Izi zinali kale kwambiri."
“Inde,” anatero Julia, ndipo Leo anapatula nthaŵi kumphunzira mosamalitsa. Tsoka ilo, Julia si mwana wamba yemwe nkhope yake imakula (ngakhale muzochitika za Leo, wolimbikira kwambiri sakhala wazaka khumi). Anali atavala diresi yofiyira yaubweya wothina ngati ya kamtsikana, ndipo ananyamula thumba lachakudya lomwe Leo ankamva fungo la mkate wotentha ndi tchizi. Sloykas, adatero. M'mimba munalira.
"Zikadali chonchi?" Ngakhale adadziwa yankho, pofika pano - sabata atamaliza maphunziro ake - anali ndi fayilo yathunthu.
"Ndipo mukudziwa zomwe SPB imachita." Kumuyang'ana mosamala, chifukwa apa ndipamene mbali ya kuthekera kwake imawululidwa. Ngakhale kuti poyamba anasangalala, kumva zinazake zokhudza mayina awo enieni ndi zilembo zawo zoyambirira kunaoneka kuti kunawalimbikitsa kupendanso. Ziribe kanthu momwe amagwirira ntchito mwakhama kwa SPB, akhoza kukhala kutali ndi maso ake ndipo machimo awo sanalembedwe.
“Inde. Ndiye ukufuna chani?" Mawu ake anali ovuta, ngati kuti anali otanganidwa ndi anthu ambiri kukumana ndi kumaliza kuyankhulana, ngakhale Leo ankadziwa bwino. Julia akanakhala kuti anamaliza maphunziro aulemu, akanatha kupeza ntchito kukampani ya telecommunication, mwina ngakhale ya mayiko osiyanasiyana, koma dipuloma yake ya koleji imatsimikizira kuti mwayi woterowo watsekedwa.
“Tsopano palibe kanthu. Muyenera kudzaza zikalata zachitetezo, phunzirani zoyambira. Kenako, ndikuganiza kuti chofunikira choyamba ndi kuphunzitsa mawu. ”
Pa nthawi yonse ya ntchito yake, Leo wakhala akugwira ntchito ndi amuna ndi akazi ambiri omwe molakwika anayerekezera khalidwe lonyansa ndi mphamvu. Tsopano anadziŵa kuti kunali kwabwino kuchotsa chikhulupiriro chimenecho nthaŵi yomweyo. Mmene mumalankhulira ndizovuta.
Julia anagwedezeka. Panali zii, ndipo anayang’ana pansi. "Ngati mukuganiza kuti chilankhulo changa cholankhulidwa ndi cholakwika, ndiye chifukwa chiyani mukundifunafuna?" Adafunsa mochita manyazi. “Chifukwa sizimakhudza maonekedwe anga.”
“Ndikuganiza kuti ndiwe mkazi wolimbikira,” anatero Leo, mwadala kugwiritsira ntchito liwu lakuti “mkazi.” "Izi, kuphatikiza luso, ndi zomwe ndikufunika."
"Zomwe ndimachita pantchito yanga ndikupanga phukusi. Phukusi laumunthu la cholinga china. Ndikufuna kuti mutsimikizire mosakayikira; vuto siliri m’mawu ako, koma m’mayankhulidwe ako. Palibe kukongola. kukhala pasukulupo kwa nthawi yayitali chifukwa titakumana koyamba, sizinali zoyipa.
"Ndinaimba nyimboyi," adatero, ndipo Leo adazindikira kuti amayenera kukumbukira pafupifupi chilichonse chomwe adakumana nacho koyamba. N’kutheka kuti kwa zaka zambiri ankayembekezera kuti Yesu adzabweranso. "m'Chingerezi."
"Inde, ndipo luso lanu la chilankhulo ndilabwino kwambiri. Pokhala ndi mphunzitsi woti muwongolere katchulidwe kanu, ndinu odziwa bwino. Simudzachotseratu kamvekedwe kanu, koma mudzadabwitsidwa ndi zomwe mungakwaniritse ndi maphunziro amphamvu. .”
Anadikira kuti Julia afunse chifukwa chake Chingelezi chinali chofunika kwambiri, koma anadziletsa. “Kenako mundiuze kuti ndidzakhala mphunzitsi wa mawu ndipo ndiphunzira Chingelezi bwino. Nanga bwanji?
"Mwina timachita masewera olimbitsa thupi. Palibe zitsimikizo. Pagawo lililonse, ntchito yanu imawunikidwa. ”
Anapukusa mutu. “Ngati mwakonzeka, mudzayamba gawo lina. Tumikirani dziko lathu, mobisa, kunja… ”
"Chabwino, kuti?" munali changu mu chidwi chake. Iye ndi mwana chabe, Leo anaganiza. Zamwano, komabe mwana.
“Titha kuzindikira mizinda pambuyo pake. Tili ndi anthu ku Berkeley ndi Stanford. Kuti mupeze visa, muyenera kulembetsa mapulogalamu omaliza maphunziro. ”
"Chani, simukuganiza kuti intaneti ndi yosangalatsa?" "Sindine munthu amene amangoyang'ana kompyuta tsiku lonse."
"Chabwino, mwina mutha kuwonjezera zomwe mumakonda. Kuphulika kwatsopano kukubwera. Ndikufuna kuti muyambitse kampani yaukadaulo. Kampani yeniyeni ya Silicon Valley yokhala ndi likulu lakomweko. "
“Inde. Wosewera wokwanira kuti akope ndalama zabwino. Otsatsa adzakhala ofunikira, makamaka poyambira. Kuchokera kwa iwo mudzalandira malingaliro kuchokera kwa amalonda ena, othandizana nawo - chilengedwe chapafupi, kunena kwake. Mbali ya dongosolo. Timautcha kuti mlatho.” Kunja kunali nyanga ndi kulira kwa malo omanga. Mwina metro, Leo adaganiza kuti, nthawi zonse idalonjezedwa kuti imangidwa. Anadikira yankho la Julia, lomwe ankaona kuti linali labwino. Amakumbukira nthawi yoyamba yomwe adapuma mpweya kunja kwa San Francisco, kukoma kwa mapapu ake - adazolowera mwamsanga, kenako adazitenga mopepuka mpaka atabwereranso pa ndege. Koma Julia sanamwetulire mwamsanga kapena chizindikiro china chachisangalalo, ankangokokera kolala yake. Analigwira ndi manja ake ubweya wa thonje, maso ake ali chitsegule ndipo ali pa tebulo. “Mwawona magiredi anga,” iye anatero.
“Hmm,” iye anapumira. “Ndiye mukudziwa kale kuti ndilibe luso. Kwa nthawi ndithu, ndinaganiza kuti ngakhale sindimakonda kalasi yanga, ndikhoza kuphunzira mwakhama, koma zimenezo sizinali zokwanira.”
Leo adadabwa: sanayembekezere kuti avomereze kuperewera kwake. Koma izi zimangotanthauza kuti iye ali wolondola kwambiri za kuyenerera kwake monga chuma. Inde, ndi bwino kukhala ndi katswiri pakompyuta, koma munthu woteroyo safuna kugwira ntchito-mulimonse momwe zingakhalire, anthu apamwamba kwambiri ku US ali pafupi kukhala akatswiri.
“Sindikufuna katswiri. Maluso ena aluso. Wolimbikira ntchito, wangondiuza zomwe uli.”
“Ayi. Mudzachita zonsezi. Manga kampani ndikuyitsogolera” “Koma ndakuuza kale, sindingathe kuchita nawo gawo laukadaulo” “Osadandaula nazo” Anayang'ana wotchi yake. Chitsulo
Nthawi yotumiza: Sep-15-2022